Yaaayy, finally deleted my Facebook! (: does anyone know how to delete Instagram?
Once upon a time, I DID talk to people about what was bugging me and I DID let them see how wrecked I was… they didn’t really understand and they did, in fact, alter their view about me. Two and a half years later, I’m well aware that the old me really did look “negative” and “weak.” And I hated that side of me. That girl was so desperate, miserable and confused. The anxiety I deal with on a day-to-day basis really hasn’t changed, but the difference is that I’m more willing to combat the negative thoughts with a positive mindset. But deep down there’s so much I don’t know how to control. And if I were to unlock the door and let someone in, I’m terrified that they’ll judge me and see me as the same person I was two and a half years ago. I don’t want to be her anymore. That’s not the way I want to be perceived. And that’s essentially why I think it’s a weakness to let anyone see what’s inside during the times I feel vulnerable. But it’s such a hard game to play because at the same time, I desperately feel like letting it all out. Jeez, life’s a bit of a bummer sometimes… not sure what I’ll do but I’m confident I’ll have it all taken care of in due time. I hope.
I hate talking to other people about my problems because I don’t want their perception about me to change or think I’m “negative” or “weak.” I try really hard to bring a ray of sunshine to my situations but no one understands that deep down I’m battling Hurricane Katrina. I guess I just feel like it’s best if people never saw that side of me so I just lock the door so they can’t get inside :(
Sometimes I feel like people act like they wanna be there for you, but then they’re not really interested in listening :/ this is essentially why I just rather keep things to myself and just handle it on my own
The greatest weapon against stress is our ability to choose one thought over another. TheDailyPositive.com (via thedailypozitive)
WHERE ARE THE NOTES?!?!?!
I’m in love with this gif. Everything about it. The rain drizzling. The candle flickering. The colors. I love it.
The way he looks at her, gets me every time 😍